Once I embraced my creativity and promised myself not to let other people keep me from doing the things that make me happy, my sense of happiness and fulfillment returned. Now I radiate the energy I need in order to attract the energy I want from people. It can be a hard thing to achieve especially after a long period of despair.
Honestly, I didn’t know if I’d ever reach this point. It was like a switch flipped in my brain. It actually occured after a dream with a goddess speaking in an old tongue. She presented me with a purple goddess statue. Researching the roots of the words and sounds online, I found out it was a most likely a mix of Babylonian, Arabic, and interestingly French which I know. It felt like a gift from Ishtar/Inanna, one of my goddesses. After that dream, I had a surge in self-love & compassion as well as creativity.
Embracing Creativity
I am actually working on an art piece depicting being blinded by despair. It is unfinished, but I will post it once it’s ready.
I have also recieved the Art for All Scholarship at Makerspace. So far, I have taken a sewing class, and leatherworking class so far. I plan to continue leatherworking and joined leatherworking club at makerspace. Hopefully, I can also invest in learning woodworking, 3d printing, ceramics and metalworking. Having creative community is also very fulfilling.
I also hemmed up some jeans I got at the thrift store and made denim pouches with the leftover cloth.
Then I made a tarot deck wrap for my tarot cards. It’s not perfect and the cord has rough edges, but it was fun to make and practice sewing.
I also fixed a bunch of clothes I had that needed mended. I need to get more black paint for mixing so shading is easer before I get back into painting.
Finding and Creating Community
Volunteering
I am volunteering for Isaiah, Faith in Minnesota and the Jake Johnson campaign in order to flip the house so that we can prevent further attacks on targeted groups, and so that we can promote diversity and inclusion in our county. No longer willing stand back, wallow in self-pity, and do nothing while the current administration continues to take away people’s rights and create discord among the masses, I decided I’d rather be productive and take action in whatever ways I can.
I’m also volunteering for Living Earth Center in Mankato, which not only maintains a community garden & farm but also promotes sustainability and environmental justice.
Becoming More Involved With Existing Groups
I am also trying to get myself to go to more local groups focusing on lgbt+, interfaith, and art. I’m hoping to audition for the Queer Choir when auditions start again.
Creating My Own Community
I am also starting my own local social group for Witches, Pagans, Heathens, Practitioners of Esoterica and non-judgemental allies. It’s called Nexus of the Cosmic Tree, because the concept of a World Tree is present in many spiritual belief systems internationally. Nexus represents the community as we all come from different branches and roots of the Cosmic Tree.
For events, I’m starting with a coffee meetup, Pub meet up, and gaming meet up. However, I’m planning to eventually collaborate with other organizations, practitioners, and more in order to host events and classes on different practices. Also, I’d like to work with artisans and Makerspace in order to to host classes on how to create your own supplies for practicing these arts.
All are welcome as long as you can commute to events in the Greater Mankato Area.
